our dog has cancer.
I seriously thought my heart was going to break into several pieces.
We are hoping for a miracle but living in the present. We are doing everything we can to save our dog.
She's had surgery, she's got a long recovery, and she's still with us.
We are clinging onto every memory and moment we have with you, G.
i quit my job.
oh yeah...that was super fun. right in the middle of photography season and also in the midst of a pandemic, but I GOT A NEW JOB and it's amazing and I feel free. I feel like myself. I have the ability to schedule when I want to and I am feeling good about my therapy growth. I cannot wait to see where 2021 takes us at Modern Wellness Family Counseling.
my parents both got hurt.
if 2020 were to take my parents with it, I would be not myself....ever again. both of my parents got hurt in accidents and it was like the world stood still. they're fine and super strong but I seriously think those moments made me realize I need more family time in 2021.
we had covid and i thought I had cancer...
these are big statements and both carry shame, regret, guilt, blame, fear, worry, anxiety, horror, and a lot of other really negative and overwhelming feelings. my migraines are made up of calcium build up, not any masses. THANK GOD. and matt and I both survived covid-19. I feel blessed.
yall I really think 2020 tried to kill us,
but we are resilient.
seriously, how did we make it all of quarantine.....without getting sick, without rescheduling a lot of weddings, without having to cancel anything, without me losing my mind with 5 months of 4 jobs, and without....just falling apart with telehealth and working from home.....for 8 months....and then all this happened.
I seriously thought I might just die of exhaustion in October.
from July-December, we had a LOT of weddings, engagements, bridals, boudoirs, family sessions, Christmas minis, fall minis, and just random love sessions planned. it is always hilarious and a ball of fun to me to be busy. but ya'll....I need the self-care, so I think Jesus and maybe mother nature just decided Matt and I both needed a (what my best friend Cheslea called) "Quarantine Honeymoon" where we could be together for 15 days straight. When I tell you, I felt relieved when we got it....I'm not lying. I don't want to be sick. I don't want to give it to anyone else, I just want to stay home. and do the cleaning, do the self-care, get a lot of photography stuff done, still work and get paid, and just pretend I don't have things going on, and just live my best stay at home life. for a little bit longer....
so that's what we did.
Of course, I still worked, we still edited, we still planned, we rescheduled...a l o t of things, and that was not fun. I scared Alexis because I thought I may not get to be in her wedding or even go to it....whoops. 2020 for ya. and I had to miss a very important wedding to photograph for a lifelong friend.
but we're in January of 2021. and all of that worked itself out. and I am so thankful to be here.
it took a lot to get here, just re-read my above pieces of life and you'll see that we overcame so much.
I know that this year will have its hardships as each year does, but whoo. can we get a break?
I'm happy to say I'm on my public hiatus from photography from January-April.
all sessions are pre-planned and will take place on dates I'm scheduling out for.
stay tuned for my updated schedule and I will see you ALL very soon for minis in the spring.
xoxo
Stay strong, stay true to you, boo, and PLEASE take care of yourself,
Love,
Burt
Here's some headshots from Hannah Kerr Photography to live off of until I upload my newest ones
she did an amazing job!
